DAY 3
I was trying to take Jan’s advice to heart and not make my meditation something to do. My time Saturday morning had barely begun when I heard the boys begin blasting an audio book on their new CD player and a few minutes later my little one crept into my bedroom and hung off the end of my bed. I felt that time with my daughter was more important and so the two of us curled up together and read a few picture books.
For the remainder of the day I worked on just being present for my children and with my children. I tried to remember to look them in the eyes, to stop and hug them spontaneously, to stop and really listen when they spoke to me.
We had a beautiful day yesterday.
DAY 4
Today everyone was up before me and we needed to be heading out to friends for the day. There was no time to be alone. In the car on the way home I was able to just sit and concentrate on my breath. Even though everyone was quietly chattering away, I was able to count my breath. I could feel the tension in my neck and shoulder blades. I could smell the beautiful scent of prairie grass. And I felt at peace.
So it seems a little funny to me that the two days I tried really hard to meditate didn’t feel very successful, but the two days I wasn’t able to sit down and meditate, ended up being more fulfilling.
Jan said that, “True meditation is simply about being with the experience, being with yourself, in the quiet.”
Maybe it’s about being with the experience even if it’s not quiet.
Related posts:
Sounds like you are doing a wonderful job. To me, it is really about being mindful, which you are doing. I totally blew it today, but I am trying to grab a few minutes here and there.